I’m honestly not sure what to say tonight for Day 68 of my 365 day challenge to create content every day.
The last 3 days have been a whirlwind and I’ve had so many thoughts, ideas, and feelings I’ve wanted to share with y’all, but I’m exhausted at the moment and can’t fully function or think straight so bear with me as I do my best.
I’m in a lot of emotional pain right now, and I don’t really want to talk about it or acknowledge it publicly, but obviously, a part of me does as here I am typing these words and sharing them with all of you. I am conflicted.
I’ve had a lot of up’s and down’s these past 3 days, past few weeks, and months. BroadwayCon was very inspiring and there was something very special there.
This morning Lesli Margherita led a panel that seemed very raw and authentic. She read a piece she wrote called “Here is What I Know” and talked about rejection, life’s up and downs, staying positive, and being kind.
Then, while watching the 60th #GRAMMYs tonight, U2 performed “Get Out of Your Own Way,” and it spoke to me and where I am right now in my life:
“Get out of your own way, oh, IGet out of your own way, oh, I
I could sing it to you all night, all night
If I could, I’d make it alright, alright
Nothing’s stopping you except what’s inside
I can help you, but it’s your fight, your fight”
– “Get Out of Your Own Way,” U2
I get in my own way A LOT with my negative self-talk, negative projections, beating myself up, and self-sabotaging behaviors (like not taking good care of myself- eating, sleeping, exercising enough etc.).
I think that is all I will say for now.