I keep stopping with my content creation because I let my negative emotions get the best of me. They overpower and paralyze me, but not TONIGHT. Tonight, I am here and writing a new blog post.
This evening, I had the cool opportunity of interviewing Val Chmerkovskiy, and I learned we had more in common than I realized.
- He is half Jewish. I am full Jewish.
- His birthday is March 24. Mine in March 26.
- He can rock a curly haired look. I rock a curly hair looked all day every day. ;-p
Val is a famous dancer, best known for his appearances on Dancing with the Stars, which he won twice. He is also the co-owner of nine social dance studios under the brand “Dance With Me.”
On a more serious note, the message I got from doing this Instagram Live interview today was to keep moving forward even when you feel like shit, even when you feel crippling anxiety that causes tightness in your chest and throughout your body, even when you feel sad, down, and hopeless, even when you don’t want to move forward, but would much rather lay in bed and binge watch some new Netflix series (my latest is Halt and Catch Fire – check it out 😉 )
The point is no matter what- keep moving forward, keep fighting. Because every little step you take leads – I know I feel like I am getting on a soap box now and kind of preaching, which is not my intention.
My intention is to share that suffering from depression is very painful and challenging and most days the way mine manifests is by trying to keep me (and sometimes everyone around me) down. So, I’ll get on social media which is like a “pro-depressant” (think the opposite of an anti-depressant), it just enhances all of the symptoms of depression- negative self-talk, lack of motivation, hopelessness, sadness, etc. As I feel most of us know, most people’s lives, including my own, “look perfect on Instagram” or whatever social platform you choose. I feel silly or redundant writing this or feel cliche talking about all of “my friends” getting engaged, married, having babies, getting promotions, buying houses etc. moving forward in life or doing what it seems society tells us we are meant to do in life – work (have a good and successful job (when I use the word successful here, I am referring to”success” as being defined by money and how much we have materially), get married, have babies, buy a house, die. This is oversimplified and not true everywhere and of everyone in a society, but that seems to be the gist of it. People who quit their jobs, are homeless, don’t have babies are not celebrated or heralded or posting glamour shots of their lives and life choices on Instagram.
The whole point of this post is to say keep moving forward. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. This post is to serve as a reminder to myself and to anyone else out their riding the struggle bus that you never know what’s around the corner.
For more of my inspirational stuff, I’m throwing it back to a Tumblr I made after I graduated college called Ma Musings on the Post-Grad Struggle, where I posted inspirational quotes and content to keep myself inspired with the hopes of inspiring others as well. It did and led to one of my first paid gigs after college.