“Healing is a matter of time, but it is sometimes also a matter of opportunity.” Hippocrates
“‘It takes what it takes’ is one way of saying it. That is indisputable, of course; healing is in God’s time and will not be rushed simply because we demand it. It is well, however, to watch for opportunity.”
I didn’t publish content on Thursday (day 98) because it was a very jam packed day, and it was a nonstop day. By 11pm, I was shot, but kept moving and doing to prepare to go away for the weekend.
I’ve been thinking about what I want to write or create since Wednesday night, and I think I keep coming back to an update on my depression, so here it goes:
On Wednesday night this thought came to me: “I think I may be turning a corner with my depression, BUT as I have experienced depression before, I also know how easily I could make a u-turn and go back down that dark alley that envelopes me like quick sand.”
Well, now it is Friday at 11:12pm, and my spirits still feel lifted, so that is good news, but I don’t want to get cocky or complacent, so I wanted to share some of the things that have helped me to feel better.
- Putting one foot in front of the other- every action I have taken has moved me forward. My depression wants me in bed with the blinds drawn watching TV or sleeping, so if I just get out of bed for breakfast and get back in bed after, that is progress. Leaving the house on the weekend and getting one thing on my to do list completed is progress.
- Don’t ever give up! This last episode of depression was about 6 months long, and many of these days were spent oversleeping or laying in bed all day watching TV, but I also took actions- I called anyone and everyone I could think to that might be able to help- I went to a therapist, psychiatrist, and primary care doctor. I regularly attend support groups.
- Reach out to others– when I was in the pit of my depression, I could not reach out to people, or did not feel I could, but doing this is so important for me and forces me to get out of my self-sabotaging ways. It’s harder for me to disappoint others than it is for me to disappoint myself. Usually if I make a commitment to someone else, I will uphold it, whereas if the commitment is just to myself, it is easier somehow to not uphold my commitment.